2009...my perspective on dis year

Hey yall. im back again and its new years eve. a lot has happened dis year and sum of it wuz good and sum wuz bad. i jus hope dat 2010 will have a lot in store 4 me and dat i have ppl dat care about me 2 help me along da way. no new years resolutions 4 me cuz i never follow thru wit dem anyway so happy new year 2 everybody. ♥ Deuces yall♥

WTF Is Up Wit Dudes Dese Days?!!!

im jus sittin here studyin 4 my history final, on fb, and listenin 2 tevin campbell im ready(can totally relate lol) and im jus wonderin wat is goin on wit dudes now? i mean most jus want a girl 2 fuck(yeah not make love 2...FUCK!!!) and once dey fuck her...dey move on 2 da next girl or dey be wit da mind games and i hope im not da only girl dats tired of da bullshit dat dese dudes( i wanted 2 say niggas but im not finna say dat) put us thru. i understand dat sum girls be lookin forward 2 dat but as my friend said nigga aint shit!!!! i dont wanna think dat but da way dat dudes be treatin women its hard not 2 think dis...a guy frm morehouse dat i met today told me & my friend dat a good man is hard to find. dis is soo true...i want a man dat can take care of me, support me, encourage me even doe i encourage myself and one dat listens and is faithful and one dat is not a hoe, a player, dumbass, a bum, or a deadbeat. i hope dis search is not futils...well im still looking so im leaving wit dis: Mr. Right, Where Art Thou?

Dueces yall....♥ ♥ ♥

12.8.09 My 19th Birthday!!!

So...today is my bday and im 19!!! i thank God for lettin me live 2 c dis day and i jus hope dat i make wise decisions and become a better person. imma also have fun and do things dat i never done b4 so...ill have 2 c wat age 19 has in store 4 me!!! dueces world!!!

Thanksgiving Break Finally!!!

so...thanksgiving break is finally here!!! i'll be able 2 get away frm CAU 4 a lil bit, chill wit da fam, c my besties, eat sum good home cooked food cuz da cafe is not gettin it, and get away frm da classes, teachers dat i can't stand(only one) or dat i can't understand. i need a break bc gettin ready 4 finals and gettin everything straight 4 da spring semester is giving me a headache. i wanna c my mommy and brother 2.i'll also get a chance 2 clear my head bc i have a new crush(yay!!!) but i kinda sorta still like dis other guy too so...ill have a chance to think. oh yeah da best part is I GET 2 BE IN MY OWN BED AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!! lets face it...a twin bed is not wats up...ill be at home tomorrow and ppl might be doin da most wen i get back but oh well. so...dats all 4 now. dueces yall. ♥ ♥ ♥

Confessions of a Hopeless Romantic

Confessions of a Hopeless Romantic:
"My name is Anonymous and I am a hopeless romantic.
I spend all day and night thinking about love.
Where I'm going to find Mr. Right and how we are going to spend our time together
I dream about having a man that will love and care for me for life
Having somebody to hold me tight when I want him to
Somebody to kiss my tears, fears, anger, and problems away
My main focus is searching for my soulmate
The one that will compliment me
I know that I won't find the perfect man and that I don't need one to complete me
I'll be satisfied knowing that one day that I will meet this specal person in my life
I'm wondering will I ever find him because I know a lot of guys but none of them is right
I might be crazy for rereading your texts to me
Holding my pillow wishing you were me and I was the pillow
Kissing a picture of you as if you are here with me
Listening to love songs and craving your attention
There's more in my mind that I can't even explain to you right now
But...these are my confessions..."

Loss of Words

Have you ever felt like your voice is gone?

When u wanna say something, nuthin comes out?

U wanna write down your feeling on a page

Pour out your soul and let it bleed on paper

But when I start to think of the words, my mind goes blank

I mean WTF is wrong with me?!!

I have so much to say

From how I feel about a special someone

To the ppl that I thought I could trust but they betrayed me

Im to the point that I feel that my words don't even matter anymore

When I wanna express myself, my thoughts, opinions, and words are surpressed

Buried deep inside my soul to the point that I'm ready to burst

Well...I have so much to say but when I try to find the words

Nuthin comes out and I'm left speechless

3 Months Into It...

So...it's been almost 3 months since i started at CAU and let's jus say in those 3 months I experienced a lot. I had my 1st real college crush on a guy frm morehouse(not saying names), lost my virginity(wish dat i could take dat back) started 2 party(fun at times), got drunk 4 da 1st time(not so fun) and now i ♥ freshman blackouts, open mic nights every thursday at Jazzmans, and u learn 2 appreciate money, home cooked food, free parties and shuttles, parents, home, siblings(even doe dey piss u off at times) and u really learn how 2 trust in God. It's almost da end of de semester. (yes!!!!!). dis semester went by so damn fast. i met a lot of new ppl. some r good ppl, others not so good ppl. i met dudes dat jus wanna have sex(not wit it). i have a fave teacher(Dr. Kimbro is indeed da shit!!!) and i ♥ my holmes hall diamonds especially everybody dat lives on da 3rd floor!! its nuthin like living in da penthouse!!! despite da nasty trifing heffas, loud asses, and almost fights, i still got ♥ 4 yall!!! dats it 4 now. i have a paper dat i need 2 start on so dueces!!! oh yeah, college is fun but remember y u came 2 college in da first place. it is 2 get an education. on da note, bye y'all!!!

College Kid C/O 2K13

This is my 1st blog. I'm Jess and I'm beginning my freshman yr at Clark Atlanta University in August 2009. I jus graduated frm HS last week and dis college thing is new 2 me. Hopefully I'll succeed. Dat's it 4 now.